Monday, November 03, 2008

...and so it goes

Doing a little better. Moving from grief alone to anger mixed in, and a terrified sense of adventure. Apartment-hunting. Contemplating packing. Growing ever-angrier at his cowardice, at being transformed into the unknowing receptacle of everything that's wrong in his life--frustrated creativity, father dying, mother failing, turning 40, being overweight, facing the void--how easy it is to simply run away, to change his environment, rather than do the adult thing and try to face what's in himself.

Everyone's been so generous in their kindness these last few weeks. People I don't know very well have responded when I've reached out, old friends are re-emerging, and I am deeply grateful.


Sandi Purl said...

bring on the anger, embrace the adventure, there's a huge light at the end of this tunnel with your name written all over it. this is all about YOU. take care of numero uno sister! eff the rest! xo

Wendy said...

Sophie - the universe is here for you, never doubt that! You are a strong, powerful woman - just keep repeating that to yourself; I promise that eventually, not only will you believe it, you will know it!

Lorena said...

I'm not really awake enough yet to say something about how beautiful and strong and brilliant you are, but that's ok because Sandi Purl and Wendy beat me to it!