mental playlist

Indulge me.

My Big Nurse - David Byrne & Brian Eno (track 2)
You Just Haven't Earned It Yet, Baby - The Smiths
(...and I've just discovered that there's also a cover by the incomparable Kirsty MacColl)
Eden - Hooverphonic
I Love Myself Today - Bif Naked

My Big Nurse
When the lake's on fire
With all the world's desires
When he shakes the stars above
When we lose the ones we love

When the seasons lose their grip
When the tightrope walker slips

I'm counting all the possibilities

When the past becomes the now
When the lost becomes the found
When we fall in love with war
When the angel fucks the whore

When the road we travel on
Takes us back where we came from
A million kinds of possibilities
For dancing on this lazy afternoon

In the comfort of the world
In the arms of my big nurse
From the science of the heart
To each animal and plant

Compact, relaxed, intact - give thanks
I'm counting all the possibilities
For dancing on this lazy afternoon
***
You Just Haven't Earned It Yet, Baby
If you're wondering why
All the love that you long for eludes you
And people are rude and cruel to you
I'll tell you why
I'll tell you why
I'll tell you why
I'll tell you why

You just haven't earned it yet, baby
You just haven't earned it, son
You just haven't earned it yet, baby
You must suffer and cry for a longer time
You just haven't earned it yet, baby
And I'm telling you now ...

If you're wondering why
When all I wanted from life was to be famous
I have tried for so long; it's all gone wrong
I'll tell you why
I'll tell you why
I'll tell you why
I'll tell you why
But you wouldn't believe me

You just haven't earned it yet, baby
You just haven't earned it, son
You just haven't earned it yet, baby
You must suffer and cry for a longer time
You just haven't earned it yet, baby
And I'm telling you now ...
I'll tell you why
I'll tell you why

Today I am remembering the time
When they pulled me back
And held me down
And looked me in the eyes and said
You just haven't earned it yet, baby
You just haven't earned it, my son
You just haven't earned it yet, baby
You must stay on your own for slightly longer
You just haven't earned it yet baby
And I'm telling you now ...

You just haven't earned it yet, baby
Oh ...
You just haven't earned it yet, baby
***
Eden
Did you ever think of me
As your best friend?

Did I ever think of you?
--I'm not complaining

I never tried to feel
I never tried to feel this vibration
I never tried to reach
I never tried to reach your Eden

Did I ever think of you
As my enemy?

Did you ever think of me?
--I'm complaining

I never tried to feel
I never tried to feel this vibration
I never tried to reach
I never tried to reach your Eden

I Love Myself Today
You left me like a broken doll
In pieces as I took the fall
For you, you dumb chump
You left me free-fallin' like space junk
Burnin' up in the atmosphere of life
Well I sound like a philosopher
But I'm a fool who's off her rocker
'Cause I let you in my heart that one last time
I've had enough, made up my mind
I'm gonna get up, and out, and wild

I love myself today
Not like yesterday
I'm cool, I'm calm, I'm gonna be okay, uh huh
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
Take another look at me now
'Cause it's your last look
Your last look forever.

Well look at you--
You're all puffed up
In a big red truck
But you're out of luck this time
Oh well that's tough
'Cause I'm on fire--too hot to touch
With a chatroom full of lovers
on the line
I'll stand right up
Spit-shine my soul
I'm gonna be proud and loud and outta control...

I'm looking the mirror
And I like what I see
I've lost the fear and the horror
That's been eatin' at me
'Cause bein' with you was like a hangman's noose
I was livin' my life in dead man's shoes
I've had enough, made up my mind
I'm gonna get up, and out, and wild

I love myself today
Not like yesterday
You're dead, and gone, I'm gonna get my way, uh huh
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
Take another look at me now
'Cause it's your last look
Your last look forever
I love myself today